So I finally have plans for Halloween weekend!!! OH YEAH GOIN TO A CONCERT!!! To be honest i don't really like or care about the band but my boyfriend and his best friend really like them. Mostly I'm excited to get all dressed up and go out!! I need to get away. just have a night of fun and forget about school just for a night. i need to relive that stress before i just implode. hope this can be that get away i need to get my head back in the game and not get so stressed out. till next time... :)

ugh...

so im stressed. i just want to do well so bad that when i dont get what i expect i get disapointed. im so down right now i cant even stand it. its like i want a break but if i get one i might fall behind. i want geat grades, not good, great. i just dont feel like im there. i just want to do well and i feel like im failing at it. its like no matter how hard im trying im not trying hard enough. im pushing myself to my max and its not good enough, it needs to be better. im just...just lost.

2 more months....

so school is zooming by. Ive already been here almost a month now and i cant even believe it. Ive been doing great on my tests, all higher then a C. i am however starting to get overwhelmed with medical terminology. there are about 50 words to learn every week, ( outrageous) and then the next week it seems to double. the struggle is just balancing all three class and trying to remember to get all of your work done on time, every time. i just wish i could  spend sometime doing something fun and not have to worry about school. not for long, just a night maybe. Ive really been wanting to go to a concert on Halloween. the band name is GWAR, to be real honest i don't really care about the band. its more just to dress up in a costume, and have fun for a night. i will say that GWAR puts on a really good show, fake blood the whole shabang. But.... now i cant go because my boyfriend has to work that night and i dont feel i would have as good of a time if he wasnt there. well it was the first concert i ever went to and he was the first person to take me. oh well, whata ya gonna do? just keep on living. until next time...

Week Three

So, its week three of college. so far school and i are coexisting. I'm not really loving all the homework and how fast paced every class is but I'm managing. I'm starting to meet new people now. not quite friends but working up to ( maybe). I'm really trying to just step out of my comfort zone. its not easy but i believe i can do it.

Well, here it is...

So im running out of money,
School is over whelming,
and I'm getting more and more stressed everyday....


I've been trying to keep my head up and keep up with all my classes, but I never thought i would struggle so much. i have been trying to balance all my classes evenly and give each one enough time to finish my work. Ive written everything down and kept track of everything, but somehow i still cant keep up. i feel like I'm drowning in my own worries. its only the second week and I'm already this stressed? Come on now...  I'm just not sure if i was cut out for all of this... BUT, I WILL NOT give up yet.